She called me yesterday afternoon, right after I finished paying a ridiculous amount of money for groceries at Walmart. So as I'm walking out of the Walmart, I'm talking to who could possibly be my future boss. She didn't even saying anything about the noise or whatever, wonder if she heard it? Anyway, it's today at 1:00. I'm not nervous about the interview at all, I usually do well in interviews. I'm more nervous that if I get offered the job, I won't have any clue what I'm doing. Stupid thing to worry about now right? This is literally a life changing experience. Much responsibility will be heaped on other people when it was me doing most of this stuff before. That had to be talked about. I am SO lucky that I have complete 100% support from friends and loved ones on this. Because if I didn't, I wouldn't be able to pursue this avenue. Not that it's some glamorous job or anything, but it's basically a "stepping stone" that I must take to get closer to my goal of being a nurse. While I've LOVED what working at home for the last six years has afforded me, I also very much lost a part of myself. I became a more closed up person. That outgoing personality I used to possess in other jobs has sort of hidden for a while. If I said that this current job has changed my personality, I wouldn't be lying. So those kinds of things are what makes me scared. Believe me, I used to be so full of confidence and now I sit here and worry about whether I'd be good enough. What if I get in that job and people hate me? I mean, I haven't technically worked with people in person consistently for 6 years. What if I have no people skills whatsoever? What if I get in this job and find I'm not cut out to do it or nursing in general? Those are the thoughts that go through my head day and night. What if I'm so affected by staying at home like a hermit for six years that I can't just bounce back and be the same person I used to be? That's just crap I have to push aside for a while. In reality, I haven't even had the interview yet and I'm not sure what it all entails and really, I need to just shut the hell up already. If it was meant to be I will get the job and get training and be fabulous at it (hopefully!). Let's just get through the interview okay? I have my outfit picked out already. I have to get showered later and figure out something to do with my hair. Finish off with makeup and some perfume (not TOO heavy) and I should be good to go. I am a bit scared, I will admit it. Change is good though right? It's just that usually when I make a decision to change something I do it immediately, before I even have time to think about what I've done. Not sure if that's always the best choice but here we go! Wish me luck! past and future A few hours my ass! - 2007-05-07
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I am a 34-year-old college student, mom, friend and all around sarcastic and fun loving person. I'm going to school to be a nurse. I recently quit a high paying job from home to get back into the hospital setting and to get my feet wet in nursing. I work on the Maternal Child Unit which includes the birthing center, perinatal care and Pediatrics. I LOVE IT! These last few years have been all about changes in my life. Although they have required great sacrifice, I know it will be worth it when I'm through. I have a great life and great family and friends and occasionally bitch about my white trash neighbors. Mostly here you will find rants and raves about various people, places, and circumstances. ENJOY! Loves: Nursing, chocolate, my daughter, family and friends, diet coke, Grey's Anatomy (DUH!), being out of my front patio in the summertime with my neighbors, babies, US Weekly magazine, reality TV, being smart and being a mother. Hates: Chemistry, online cyberstalkers who have no life but to be online 24/7 causing drama, my white trash neighbors, pepporoni pizza, mice, bugs, when it's too hot outside and I get sweaty, seafood, backstabbing people, liars, crooks, and when people play the "victim" and whine 24/7.
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