Anxiety attack 2007-01-21 4:40 p.m. Nevermind me, I'm just having a bit of an anxiety attack at the moment. Doubled with being hungry, it's no fun for me.

I decided to get into my online class and get some more work done. Only to discover the class is WAY more involved than I had originally thought. Since I can be a dumbass from time to time, I didn't read into it very much.

I finished one assignment and submitted it, thinking I was way ahead of the game because it is not due until January 29th. AFTER I submitted it I went to my email and found an email from my teacher telling us exactly how to format our submissions. Well shit, I didn't even come close to formatting it right. Onset panic attack. So I sent her an email asking if she wanted me to resubmit it in the correct format. I imagine the response I will get back from her will be along the lines of....YES! DUH you dumbass, please do! And that makes me nervous. So I got the whole assignment in the right format and went to submit it again and damn! I can't resubmit it. I'm thinking she has to do something for me to do that. So I'll await her humiliating email and then resubmit it again, in the correct format..you know what I would have done had I read the email BEFORE. I feel like such a dumbass!!! This is my first online class and have felt intimidated on more than one occasion.

So as I was feeling stupid, I went into a discussion area where we are supposed to write some stuff and comment on others' submissions and I saw somebody completely didn't read the directions on that particular assignment, in fact it was pretty bad. Then I didn't feel so bad.

I'm horrible, I know it.

So basically what I'm trying to convey here is that this class will be much more work than I had originally anticipated and now I'm stressed about it. But still not as stressed as I was for Chemistry last semester. That just sucked ass, plain and simple.


We did get about 5 inches of snow last night. We tried getting out in it this morning and our parking lot was by far the worst place to be. THe roads were pretty good. We drove by tornado hill which everybody goes sledding down and it was PACKED! I'd never seen so many people up there at the same time. Had we had a sled and the Bears game wasn't on this afternoon we may have gone down ourselves. But alas, football was waiting.

You wanna hear something completely moronic? I got hired for this second job without an interview, meaning I haven't even really met anybody there yet such as my supervisor or anybody. I went and got my physical but nobody even told me what my rate of pay is!!! So I go to this orientation tomorrow from 8:00 - 2:00 PM (I think, I lost the piece of paper I wrote it on) and I don't even know what the hell I'm getting paid to be there, or to even work for that matter. I mean what the hell? This has been the biggest clusterfuck of all time. But I know eventually I'll meet somebody somewhere and they will tell me how much they are shelling out to employ me. But I'm so damn hard up for money right now, I'll take anything. Isn't that just depressing?

I can't wait to be out of school, make some good money, work one job and get one paycheck, pay all the bills and not have to worry.

Only 4 more years to go!

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The smell of spring - 2007-04-26
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