11:11 p.m. - 2007-02-28
Sleep? What the hell is that?
I'm dead tired.
I haven't been sleeping at night much at all, I think part of it is anxiety over the busy week ahead. So I've basically had minimal sleep, coupled with having to work long hours and being on my feet nonstop, add to that a test tomorrow I haven't study as much for as normal (there goes my 99!) and other things going on here I don't care to talk about....I'm effin spent. Stick a fork in me, I'm done.
I studied tonight for 2 hours. Not enough, I can tell you that. I usually study 3 times that much for a test.
Plus I have another assignment due for another class by midnight on Friday. I have to work on Friday too. So who knows when I'm gonna sit down and think about THAT one.
It's these times I have to just take a break, sit back and take it all in and know that all the hard work WILL get me somewhere someday. Right now I have no concept of when and how that will happen but I have faith that it will.
I sit and look at how much I'm doing and I know it's stupid and busy and too much sometimes, but I don't see any other way.
I swear to God above if anybody comes back to me 5 years from now and says I didn't work my ASS off for this I am going to smack them upside the head and down to their ass. Because they haven't had the late nights, the tooooooo early mornings and the trying to cram my 35-year-old brain with stuff that I'll hopefully remember past Friday.
It sucks. And I'm tired. So that is all.
