11:29 a.m. - 2007-03-12
Lots of things whirling around in this head o' mine
I am back from working my ass off all weekend. I hate it that I work all weekend and it really doesn't feel like one. My friends and family are running around doing the weekend-y things and I'm stuck at my job.
But if I had a job I hated it would be entirely different. I love my job. I enjoy being there doing the things that I do. I do my job with passion because it's that area I am passionate about. Nurses notice it too. One day this week my boss walked up to me and told me that that day 4 nurses went out of their way to tell her how wonderful I am and helpful to them. That made me feel great. That just gives me the satisfaction of knowing that I *am* doing the right thing and gives me even more drive to continue trudging on.
I'll stop with all of the cheesy business because I really could go on and on.
One interesting tidbit is Jax, my mom and my nephew came to visit me on Saturday and my mom made a comment about how happy I looked there. She said it looked like I was losing weight (for her to notice and say something about it is HUGE). It seems as though everybody around me notices the difference in my attitude and happiness. AWESOME! And to think mere months ago I was regretting the decision to stop making great money and get myself down into the trenches of the health care system to better myself.
Last night was spent getting an assignment done for English Comp. I spent 2 hours working on it and it still wasn't finished yet. So I started in this morning and finished it in about an hour. Don't know what grade I'll get but we'll see. The shitty part of it is that I still have a 3-5 page essay due by 11:59 PM tonight. I've already started writing it though and because of the material in the essay I am writing about, I really don't think it will be a problem. In fact, I need to get started on that when I'm done here.
School is having spring break this week (apparently that doesn't include online classes) so I have NO Developmental Psych on Thursday!! Which really doesn't hurt my feelings if you ask me :)
I've been talking to my nephew on the phone every night. Because of circumstances that I will not get into here, he is not living at home at present. So he calls me and it's so cute. The first time he called I asked him what he needed and he said nothing. It was then I discovered he called to just talk. And I found that very cute and sweet. I mean he's 12 and getting that man deep voice and is trying to act all grown up and getting into things that quite frankly are way too old for him. So for him to call and just want to talk is very cool I think. He made a comment on Saturday that "Aunt Joey" wouldn't want me. That is completely untrue. Of course I'd take him if the court system allowed it. I have a tiny apartment but still, we'd make room for him if we had to. I'd hate to see him go wherever and not have contact with family and such. So now he kinda has his hopes set on coming to stay with me for a while and I've told him twice now that he has to go where the court tells him to go. I really just don't want him to set himself up for disappointment in case he can't come with me. We will know in the next few days though. I wish I had a bigger place to bring him home to, but right now I don't. Time will only tell in the future I guess.
I really think I've been screwing around long enough. There is an essay to be written! Wish me luck I may need it!!!!!!
